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Great story! You are excellent writer. I would be very happy to see your book sold on the bookmarket. I am sure it will be a bestseller like "Wild Nights". As I am also bulgarian I wish you a very best future with Mr B.! My sincere admirations!

Glen - 12/02/99 20:00:20
My Email:gleeg66@hotmail.com
Country: U.S.A

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Very good site, my process of coming out was very similar,but i didn't tell my parents,they where there and the police right behind them. But that is a very long story. I hope your life is going well. Glen

John - 12/01/99 00:43:16
My Email:jdk@jesmond2.freeserve.co.uk
Country: England

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Excellent and moving account. I emphathise with so much of it because I am a teacher, fortunately in a fairly tolerant school. I, myself, only came out 3 years ago at the advanced age of 46. Everybody has been very accepting and by acquiring new gay f iends, I doubled the number of good friends. I thought the water would be freezing but it's quite warm really. You are to be congratulated on your excellent site! Good wishes John

Larry - 11/29/99 02:42:52
My Email:LWVlaams@aol.com
Country: U.S.A.

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Good website! Thanks for your story about your comming out to yourself and others. It is quite a process. I know. Take care

CityREDboy (Andy) - 11/27/99 18:12:51
My URL:http://i.am/cityredboy
My Email:cityredboy@i.am
Country: UK

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What a great home page! I'm really impressed. Take care, love, CityREDboy (ANDY!) xxx

pedro - 11/27/99 17:17:24
My Email:enchantedlife@easypost.com
Country: uk

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I love your site especially the diary,like Bridget Jones but with more sex, you must lead a v. busy life!

reelguy - 11/26/99 10:16:52
My URL:http://home.earthlink.net/~reelguy
My Email:reelguy@earthlink.net
Country: Los Angeles, California, USA

Comments:
Great great site. I have it on my favorite, and will go back every week to read your diary. Make a movie? absolutely!!! I am all for it!

Ben - 11/26/99 03:02:08
Country: USA(New York)

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This was such a great story. I think you ought Make a film of it! sincerely.

- 11/24/99 00:13:20

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ian - 11/18/99 21:12:44
My Email:cupacoffee@usa.net
Country: philippines

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im totally speechless. you were very brave. when will that same coming-out time come for me? when you told me about how close you were with your mom, i began to feel for u. my mom's my best friend, too. thank you for sharing ur life with the rest of the world. a warm hug and a firm handshake, and a cute little noogie to a new friend ive found...at least in cyberspace. :)

Mary - 11/15/99 23:36:03
My Email:ramydam@rice.edu
Country: USA

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Thank you for your story. Your success in fighting homophobia at your school was especially encouraging.

Wayne Thomas - 11/15/99 16:45:42
My Email:ikz412@nortelnetworks.com
Country: USA/Dallas Texas

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Thanks for sharing your story. You are truley a strong person to have come out in school. You certainly have your stuff together and will do well in life. Thanks again for sharing!

Edward Dahlgren - 11/14/99 16:42:33
My URL:http://www.gay4berlin.de
My Email:gayberlin@gmx.at
Country: germany

Comments:
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Robert Batts - 11/14/99 10:42:53
My Email:robtbatts@aol.com
Country: US(South Florida)

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I and my significant other just registered as domestic partners in Broward County Florida yesterday. Things have really come a long way (in some places) since I came out fully in 1987 at the age of 35. Keep up the good work in telling your story. It's how we change the world. With affection, Robert.

aztecyhessin - 11/14/99 08:51:46
My URL:http://www.freespeech.org/aztec
My Email:aztecyhessin@141.com
Country: United States (Indiana)

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Hey, an interest site-- with a lot of hits. How the hell do you get so many hits? You have to tell me your secret!! :) Interesting coming out story- and diary. Keep up the good work. Sites like this keep the internet enjoyable.

Mike - 11/14/99 08:16:18
My URL:http://www.students.uiuc.edu/~spivak/fun
My Email:spivak@uiuc.edu
Country: USA (Illinois)

Comments:
Very nice story! Saw it mentioned on the newsgroup soc.support.youth.gay-lesbian-bi.

David - 11/13/99 23:20:15
My Email:Davhmstr@aol.com
Country: Usa (Oregon)

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I really liked your coming out story =o) I am only out to my mom so far but i'm workin on the rest of the family. Soon I hope to be out to at least one friend that I know won't reject me and then I do hope to be out my senior year in High School (i'm a ophomore now) Thanx so much *hugz* -David

eric - 11/13/99 20:17:43
My Email:bobsessive@hotmail.com
Country: canada

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Jassi - 11/13/99 10:51:29
My URL:http://none
Country: USA

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hello....just wanted to say ~HUG~ I am so proud of you for posting your story. My best friend came out to me 3 years ago that he is gay....I was the first person he had told and at the time he was still not even sure if he was...he said he was only "thin ing" that he might be. Anyways...6 months later he finally came to terms that he is gay. I love him with all my heart and wouldn't trade him for anything. I hope others out there see that if there best friends can't except them for who they really are, then they obviously aren't really a best friend. ~hugs~...god bless....take care of you...Robin

Jon - 11/12/99 20:06:28
My Email:jonny4006@aol.com
Country: usa

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Thanks for putting your story out there for the world to read. It takes major courage to expose details of your life that are so imtimate. J.

John B. Wedekind - 11/11/99 20:52:32
My Email:johnwede@hotmail.com
Country: UK

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Lordy! Lordy! Lordy! The times, they are a changin'. When last I checked, you were a chaste and pureyoung man...well, maybe not so chaste and maybe not so pure. It has been quite a few months since last I read your diary. It seems that you have kept yours lf quite busy. Trust me, I am not passing judgement...Been there, done that...Christ! I'm still doing that. It is just fascinating to see the change in you as a person. So often, one finds people who are stagnant and boring. Dull and lifeless. You are non of the above. You exude energy, fire, and life. Movement and change are good things and help us to grow as people. You have grown so much in such a short period of time; have moved forward as a person, and yet, still maintain some of your innocence and c rtainly your charm. My only cautionary word is to be careful. Although I know you only from what you have written, I would hate to see any harm come to you. You are too precious to the rest of us. Maybe sometime when I decide to wander down from the wilderness of Norfolk, we can meet for a drink and exchange war stories (your 'cannon to the left of me, cannon to the right' jacuzzi story was hysterical). Until then, keep fighting the good fight and e who you want to be, not who others preceive you to be. Take care, John

peregrine - 11/11/99 18:37:40
My Email:peregrin96@aol.com
Country: USA

Comments:
Great site!

BeefinOZ - 11/10/99 03:05:38
My Email:bigoz1@yahoo.com
Country: Australia

Comments:
Great site. Great coming out story. Great attitude. You know who you are - well done!

Troyboy - 11/09/99 16:15:46
My URL:http://i.am/troyboy
My Email:troy_munns@hotmail.com

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Loved this website, loved your diary, glad you are leaving your depression, it destroyed an made me leave the town I loved. But one day... Good luck with everything and take care.

Stuart - 11/08/99 02:28:47
My URL:http://jump.to/stuartrichards
My Email:stuartrichards@yahoo.com
Country: Wales.....uk

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hey, I read your diary, and i thought it was great, i am glad that your better...even though i don't know you. speak soon! stu

Yeffy - 11/07/99 21:01:34
My URL:http://www.msu.edu/~davisjef
My Email:davisjef@msu.edu
Country: USA

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It's been quite a while since I've been to your page. I'd lost the URL. I just got a bulk mailing, and I thought "wow, I'd better check that out!" The site's improved a lot, I really like it. I just started my own webpage myself (it's not anywhere nea as cool as yours). I'm so glad you decided to keep writing the diary. It really does help people. I'm still not out completely myself (only to a few select people) and it's encouraging to see your site. It reminds me that I'm not a freak, and other p ople stress out too. Hang in there P, you'll find the right guy eventually. Who knows, maybe the "well-endowed" dude will be the one. Someday, when I figure out my own weird situation, I'll write it all on my site. Have a Happy Day! Yeffy

- 11/07/99 15:07:29

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One's emotions are the product of either one's thinking or one's evasions - ur guide is ur mind - love yourself and the rest will follow - ur gr8 - choose values u want 2 live by! West Central = gr8, Ku = fab, mmm Rupert St ok, do a G.A.Y and u'll fly aga n :)

greg - 11/04/99 01:24:43
My Email:gl91@hotmail.com
Country: USA

Comments:
Excellent site. I spent hours here. It is great to know that I am not alone. (Your Hot!)

jay - 11/01/99 19:05:12
My URL:http://www.mutability.com
My Email:jay@mutability.com
Country: United States

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I was really amazed reading through your site, and remember how it was for myself coming out so young, I envy your openness. Good luck with university. :)

Leon - 11/01/99 18:30:42
My URL:http://www.oxford-cheetahs.demon.co.uk/leons.htm
Country: UK

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Nice site, and I liked your 'friends' page (which is what bought me to your page in the first place !

Gareth W Hughes - 10/31/99 03:40:54
My URL:http://homepage.virgin.net/gareth.hughes/
My Email:gareth.hughes@virgin.net
Country: UK, Merseyside

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What a wonderful website, full of anguish, tears and joy. I will be back, and you are a cute looking guy too!

Brian Coleman - 10/30/99 22:06:44
My Email:bcdale@lineone.com
Country: UK

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I really do sympathise and empathise with you I think you were brave. i felt very like you in the 60s but put myself in denial till my mid 30s. I'm a teacher now and try to overcome suchprejudice as you encountered for my pupils. I'm still not out to ever one not my parents just some friends Good Luck to you.

Andy H - 10/30/99 18:14:14
My URL:http://www.mexboroughuk.freeserve.co.uk/
My Email:andrew@mexboroughuk.freeserve.co.uk
Country: UK

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Very well written, thought provoking story, amazing how many similar choices we all face in life, and a chance to see what might have been if we had taken another path. And a happy ending too!

- 10/30/99 12:39:26

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david - 10/25/99 19:57:22
My Email:tigoe@yahoo.com
Country: Portugal

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good on you.... I wish I had been as brave as you where. hugs to you t

Jerry - 10/25/99 14:45:26
My Email:espn97@17.hinet.net

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I'm so glad that I read the story and knowing that coming out could be so so meaningful. Life isnot easy I know, but at least you've been thorugh it. I hope I can too. I'm not outed to my family but to some of my friends. It feels really nice to have someone to talk to. Wish to talk to you too I'll be great if you would write to me.

dan purcell - 10/25/99 12:04:29
My Email:carthage3@hotmail.com

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Just read your travails with desirable Roger. Doesn't sound worth it. Certainly not drowning oneself in the bath. Read your guestbook, everyone loves you and would like to come onto you. What are you worried about? Dump Roger!

Mark - 10/25/99 03:39:11
My Email:mark@quick-silver.freeserve.co.uk
Country: UK

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Love the site, Tried to send you some mail but your email address bounces. Anyway keep up the good work....

Galang Sutan Pasya - 10/24/99 06:49:51
My Email:galangs@yahoo.com
Country: Indonesia

Comments:
Cool P! I tried to contact you may your email address, but it didnt work Would you reply back..please

Galang Sutan Pasya - 10/24/99 06:48:59
My Email:galangs@yahoo.com
Country: Indonesia

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Cool P! I tried to contact you may your email address, but it didnt work Would you reply back..please

C - 10/22/99 19:01:41
Country: Cymru

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P! You are SOOOOOOOOO fucking gorgeous! You could ram my ass anytome, baby!

C - 10/22/99 19:01:33
Country: Cymru

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Hey there fellow travellar. I thought i would have to travel a very broad net before finding someone who was as moved by Japan as I was. Although I have not got my Japanese page up and running, I have every intention of doing so. Email me if ya wanna c at

Moe - 10/20/99 11:03:54
My Email:moe79@iname.com

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Hey P, how is it going? I just wanted to tell you that your great and cute too. Im a regular reader of your diary and you never cease to amaze me, and i sincerly hope that someday you'll find what your looking for.

John - 10/19/99 03:55:41
My Email:johnboy_09@mailcity.com
Country: USA

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I just finished reading your coming out story and was very moved by it. I only hope when I finally am ready to come out that I have as much support as you did. If you want to talk go ahead and email me. You have a great page!

Tommy - 10/18/99 15:00:45
My URL:http://http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Castro/6574/TOMMY.html
My Email:tommy.linde@kolumbus.fi
Country: Finland

Comments:
Hi you are a really really goodlooking guy and nice homepage email if you like see ya love tommy

ewan - 10/12/99 21:27:16
My Email:ewankevin@hotmail.com
Country: United Kingdom+Heart of London

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Hi P, nice to see your homepage. I was interested in your homepage cause I'm Japanese, I look forward to watching your site in the future. Totemo Sugoi page deshita, Chinami ni Boku wa Nagoya kara kimashita. anyway, good luck with your study of Japanese.

- 10/11/99 22:29:34

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Absolutely great. Hope that this will help others in same situation. It might of helped me only 26 years too late.

Troy Garner - 10/11/99 21:09:10
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Castro/7911
My Email:Manly941@aol.com
Country: USA

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Alot of my experiences with coming out to myself, friends, and family are pretty similiar to yours. I came out really late at the age of 25. I am now 27. I truly regret that I didn't have the role models or support that alot of young people have now. know that I would have accepted who I am alot sooner. I spent 7 years in the Navy. I came out a year and a half before I got out, because I got tired of feeling like a criminal waiting to get caught. I was out to many of my friends and family. Many o my friends were in the military and were ok with my being gay. I know that my coming out to them was a good thing because they stood up for gays when fellow military members made anti-gay comments or jokes. I now live in Seattle and have a boyfriend wh se hand I hold everywhere we go. We do get looks and comments, butt we just smile and continue walking. Anyway, if you want to talk some more, you can email me. By the way, great webpage!!

Yvo - 10/11/99 14:37:48
My Email:yvo56@hotmail.com
Country: USA

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Hi darling... belle histoire. It's funny, I remember you telling me once very quickly that you'd been through lots of difficult times in school, but I'd never had the complete story... Glad I had it now! Take care, & talk to you soon!

Philip - 10/10/99 13:54:13
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Park/4940/
My Email:sausage4940@geocities.com
Country: U.K.(Swindon)

Comments:
Your cute,great web site

SaintJames - 10/08/99 15:16:30
My Email:SaintJames@heaven.com

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SexiestP.. Fab web site, been a while since I visited it, and also great party..probably just as well my halo is still untarnished...oh well, until next time :) StJ

L.Claessens - 10/06/99 13:54:27
My Email:l.claessens@kempel.nl
Country: The Netherlands

Comments:
It's agreat page and a very moving story. I think alot of guys appreciate these kind of pages very much. So good luck.

Luc C - 10/06/99 00:47:37
My Email:voicelight@mailcity.com
Country: UK

Comments:
Hiya, nice to see your new site, but I still prefer the old one's welcome page design..Just a few feedback for your survey..instead of 100% gay, how do you think about to have another variety as tend to be gay? Moreover, to feel in love is a very emotio al thing...it can happen just in a sudden or after a period of time and learn to love the person, yes I did experience both... Nice to view your diary too! Cool! Take care mate!

Joe - 10/05/99 21:25:24
My Email:naplesfalcon@aol.com
Country: USA

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Hey P! Your party sounds like a blast ... sex in the bathroom though ... how rude ... they should have invited their host surely?! ... South Florida is reading all about you ... take care and be good (and I don't mean behave!)

Jess Kalinowsky - 10/03/99 21:28:57
My URL:http://home.earthlink.net/~friendstravl/
My Email:friendstravl@earthlink.net
Country: USA - California 90069

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I will be visiting the UK in a few weeks. I will be in London, some other parts of England, Ireland, and Scotland. I am hoping to meet some nice local guys to show me the sights. If you would be interested in showing this "yank" from West Hollywood Calif rnia around your area, please get in touch soon so we can set up a meeting time and place. Or if you may not have the time to meet personally, would you be kind enough to send me information about really good places to stay, ( B&B's or First class hotels , gay places to go and things to do in your area, like gay clubs, restaurants, and other venues you feel would be nice for a American tourist to see and do. Thank you very much for your time and effort, I look forward to meeting you personally. Jess http://home.earthlink.net/~friendstravl/ friendstravl@earthlink.net

Joe - 10/02/99 11:48:01
My Email:freyr@hotmail.com
Country: Iceland

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Loved your Coming Out Story, thanks for leting us in on your life like that! :)

p - 10/01/99 19:50:16
My Email:trapped.in.london@info.net.nz
Country: London, England

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I can empathise with your comments about working in an investment bank - some people can be so obnoxious and it can be a pretty thankless job at times. I've had a pretty homophobic boss so have stayed in the closet but there are other gay people in other reas that I know of. Anyway, good luck in pursuing your dreams. cheers, p.

Wayne Danielson - 09/30/99 22:55:30
My URL:http://www.goecities.com/~john-wayne
My Email:wdanielson@uswest.net
Country: USA

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I really enjoyed your coming out story. There are times that I wish I had stood my ground also. But I waited and now have a great relationship with my lover John, his family, and my own family. You will go far.

Jason and shayne - 09/28/99 13:42:39
My URL:http://www.welcome.to/jasonandshayne
My Email:jayshay96@hotmail.com
Country: Australia

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Hi P Great page enjoyed ready a bout you coming out. keep up the good work Take care Jason

adika ranggala - 09/27/99 10:22:52
My URL:http://solcities.com/fun/aadikara
My Email:aabin19@yahoo.com
Country: indonesia

Comments:
I like the survey ! You are so cute ! :)

roy newby - 09/24/99 17:54:02
My Email:roynewby@hotmail.com
Country: canada

Comments:
fantastic getting to this spot. love ya' all, roy n.

Paul - 09/23/99 13:06:01

Country: UK

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Cousin P! Saw your site address on your e-mail and thought I would take a look - very impressed and congrats on the award etc!!! take care and all the best PP

Tom - 09/22/99 00:10:22

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P...I went to the Forum like you wanted but kept getting errors....is it 100%? I like your diary... I hope you find someone...its tough...I know I'm gay too...I think its hard these days when sex is so readily available...why bother committing? I dont feel that way but I think its prevelant as an attitude... stay safe

Zed - 09/21/99 00:27:05
My URL:http://swansongs.net/nuclear/
My Email:zed@swansongs.net
Country: England

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I can't exactly say I can relate (being a straight female), but the history was wonderful. I read it back in March or sometime, then returned recently to reread it. There was just the right amount of description and emotion. Wow. And the diary is one of t e most honest I've ever read. I'll be back.

Rick - 09/20/99 20:09:58
My Email:rickb55412@yahoo.com
Country: United States

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I love your page especially what you've done now I like the gay sex survey and of course the diary,im sure you will find the right guy for you you seem like such a great caring and kind person. take care Rick

Rob Carrien - 09/20/99 01:48:32
My Email:rcarrien@ix.netcom.com
Country: USA

Comments:
Great website!!! And congrats on all you have done so far keep up the GREAT WORK Best regards Rob

Don - 09/19/99 22:20:58
My Email:haslam@netcom.ca
Country: Canada

Comments:
Hi P, I actually kissed my str8 best friend when we were drunk..and it was a bad idea. From then on I stuck to gay guys! Coming out to friends and co-workers was very easy for me, family much more difficult...P.S. Love the Pride drag :-)

Markus - 09/18/99 17:12:36
My Email:markooh@aol.com
Country: Germany

Comments:
I just came across your long, detailed story. Very interesting. I hope it helps many guys to get to terms with being gay. Even if it is a difficult time. However, experiences are different. For example I have not lost a single friend after coming out. Mos of them just asked: "So what?"

Andrew - 09/15/99 11:54:50
My Email:wageslave54@yahoo.com
Country: UK

Comments:
Excellent site, whiled away some time at work. One thing - "slab of meat"?? See you in Kudos..

Amanda @ Allen's Work - 09/15/99 10:02:47
My Email:a@b (sorry shy)
Country: UK

Comments:
Great website. I will definatly be visiting your site again for updates on your diary!!!. I would love to read about Allen. (I think you know who)

Neill - 09/15/99 10:02:21
My Email:neilldowne@yahoo.com
Country: London, UK

Comments:
You're a strong, courageous guy to come out at such a young age. I'm 24 now and only done it relatively recently, my bf's 20 and says he'll NEVER come out. I've sent him your page to read through. I find that people are much more understanding now than th y were 5 years ago, and we need people like you to give us a bit of self respect. God Bless Your Heart.

Raz - 09/14/99 13:39:21
My Email:surfer_dude@surferdude.com
Country: Singapore

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Please contact me P...... I need ur help and u to be my friend.

jack - 09/12/99 20:09:24
My Email:jakekinsella@hotmail.com
Country: u.k.

Comments:
You were more courageous in your teens than I am at 31. I'm still struggling with my feelings - and I found your page a big help. I understand what you mean about looking for positive gay role models. My [male] boss at work tried to assault me sexually 3 or 4 years ago and threatened to fire me if I didn't play along. I wasn't out and in face wasn't even dealing with thoughts of bei g gay but the whole experience fucked me up. I was new to the area and had no friends and felt very alone. I'd been to the guys house [he was training me up at the time and he'd had other trainees there] and met his wife [also a man]. When I look at the life he had made for himself - letching after young men well into his 60's, holding underwear parties for kids no more than 16 or 17, the only gay role model i've had contact with is possibly the worst type. I want a good life and I want to be close with another guy but I couldn't make for myself the repellant life he'd constructed. So pages like yours help far more than you know. I know I was only supposed to sign the guestbook but I appear to have gone a little too long. I hope others checking the messages realise that there's a lot of us out there. Cheers. Jack

Nigel Skelchy - 09/12/99 15:53:31
My URL:http://members.xoom.com/Ewiggin
My Email:nigelskelchy@hotmail.com
Country: Malaysia

Comments:
Just finished reading your coming out story and had just remarked to a friend how similar coming out stories usually are. Oh, I don't mean that your and mine were the same since I came out MUCH MUCH later than you did, but the feelings, the fears, the par noia. What can I say? I know what it takes to come out and I still admire people who do! The web page is just so you can get an idea of who I am. I need to update it and include all my "out" info. Unfortunately, life in the real world is pretty exciting a d taking time to update a web page seems to be last on my list these days. Take care. If you have a moment do drop me a line.

Philip - 09/11/99 19:00:35
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Park/4940/
My Email:sausage4940@geocities.com
Country: UK

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joe - 09/07/99 22:36:09
My Email:naplesfalcon@aol.com
Country: USA

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Perfect cross between "Queer as Folk" and "Adrian Mole" ... use the description at your leisure! If you ever want a "P in South Beach" episode ... Joe

john - 09/07/99 11:54:15
My Email:tullintrain@hotmail.com
Country: northern ireland

Comments:
brilliant page and a gorgeous guy behind it i am 19 and a good looker but you are better enogh of the flattery now. take care and all the best e mail me if you like.

SPACEORANGE - 09/04/99 07:18:35
My Email:JC@SPACEORANGE.KAROO.CO.UK
Country: YORKSHIRE

Comments:
Greetings, inspirational, your site is becoming more popular than the BBC. I'm still struggling with my bisexuality, and still pretty much in the closet as a Sexual person! Nice one, Cheers SPACEORANGE

mark - 09/04/99 02:59:11
My Email:mebenhoch@aol.com
Country: usa

Comments:
enjoyed the site.. you are an extraordinary young man.. bravo!

Phil Evans - 09/02/99 16:33:00

Comments:
Great improvement since your move - love the rotating logo.

geno - 08/27/99 18:11:38
My Email:barbaloot@hotmail.com

Comments:
I am sorry to hear you are not writing online anymore! I will miss your updates very much!

- 08/25/99 17:03:08

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Awesome writing...I think your story will help a lot of young guy's wrestling with the thought of being gay.

Jon - 08/21/99 20:31:25
My URL:http://home.freeuk.net/j.renyard/
My Email:j.renyard@freeuk.com

Comments:
Fab site - love the colours, love the layout, and you're sexy as hell. Is that enough? And congrats on resigning - sounds like you made the right choice? It was fun looking round; I'll be back to look some more!

Johan Dippenaar - 08/21/99 14:41:15
My Email:johand@axiom.co.za

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Dear P, I loved your page, especially your history. You are so right in the way you wrote that for you, but knowing that it could possibly help others. On my page I am currently working on a similar venture, though ot with so many pictures of myself (I'm camera shy). Good luck and Godspeed. Signed, Patrick Sean Purdy

steven wynants - 08/20/99 11:50:50
My Email:steven.wynants@compaq.com

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I'd like to congratulatue you with your wonderful site. I'm sure that your life story can mean a great deal to other people in the same situation. I wish I had a friend like you in high school!! Take care!!

Chris - 08/20/99 01:16:58

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Hi, I just saw your page on my boyfriend's computer. I think you did an awesome job making this page and that you photograph really well. Congrats. Have a great day (i'm sorry I didn't have time to look at all of it). -c

Yossi Ron - 08/20/99 00:06:18
My Email:yossi-ron@barak-online.net

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I loved your story. I think that you are a very brave man. I hope i could do the same long time ago. Many year's have past since i was 17, but still i can do it now. I hope you will find your happiness in this cruel world and find the right man to be with. Thank you for being you ! ! !

Glen - 08/15/99 16:53:23
My Email:i_am_glewis@hotmail.com

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Your story was almost a carbon copy of mine. It brought back a lot of memories that I had almost forgotten. Good to see another GWM who lives off the Economist

Emy - 08/13/99 20:04:16
My Email:misse99@earthlink.net

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I am not gay. I am, in fact, a young american woman. Yet your story is deeply inspiring to me. Not even on a gay coming-out story level, but on a basic emotional level. You are an amazing person. I wish I had your courage to stand up for something I belie ed in. You faced up to much opposition and almost, humilation, but I am very glad that, after the horrendous struggle you must have gone through, that you became such a funny, interesting, peaceful man. I admire you and wish you the best success in everyt ing you do. And I hope someday you put your excellent writing skills to use in newspaper, magazines, or novels, whether they be gay-based or not. Em

scottyg - 08/12/99 07:18:23
My Email:scotyg@hotmail.com

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thank you for your inspiring story. i am a 24 yo gay male from the us and i have not really come outyet. i have told some friends, but not my parents or the majority of my friends. i unfortunately took the easy way out for too long. I an very lonely and don't have any gay friends (my friends that know are supportive but ignorant). i know that my parent will also be supportive, but i just can't get myself to initiate the conversation!!! (if only they would ask me!) anyway...i guess that i wrote that mostly for me. but i would like to have somebody to talk to!!!! so please write me back @ scotyg@hotmail.com thanks again for the story

scottyg - 08/12/99 07:12:21
My Email:scotyg@hotmail.com

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What a great story--I don't know why I find it so fascinating to read other people's experience. . .maybe because mine's been so botched. You're a courageous guy.

michael - 08/12/99 01:49:50
My URL:its crap so i won't bother
My Email:walrus_gumboots@hotmail.com

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I am just part way through reading your History section. I can relate to a lot of things you have been through, but there are some things which are just "WOW". You are an amazing person.

Martin - 08/11/99 15:10:39
My URL:http://members.tripod.co.uk
My Email:moonraker100@hotmail.com

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Hey P - Just checked out your page and read your story. I wish I had been as brave as you when I was at school. It can make so much difference to other people's lives too. Hope things work out for you with your career and in love :) I'll look out for you hen I'm in London next week - I never seem to meet cute guys like you on the tube! love Martin x

John Wells - 08/11/99 09:13:47
My URL:http://www.phon.ucl.ac.uk/home/wells/home.htm
My Email:j.wells@phon.ucl.ac.uk

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I read your story with interest and sympathy. Glad it all worked out well in the end. I didn't come out to my parents till I was 19. I am 60 now, and have been with my same-sex partner for over thirty years. I hope everything turns out as well for you as t has for me. Best wishes, John

Marc (Y2KBOY) - 08/10/99 20:57:43
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/westhollywood/cafe/2618
My Email:y2kboy@fiberia.com

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::nice!!

Nick Reading - 08/06/99 07:57:05
My Email:Nick_Reading@msn.com

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An excellent and perceptive history. I enjoyed reading it very much. It makes a change to read things on the net that are properly written and intelligent. I assume you were at the City of London School, judging by the picture.

james - 08/04/99 20:45:33
My Email:goodhugh@hotmail.com

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P, Please update...

--name removed on request-- - 08/04/99 18:48:36
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An amazing story, it truely touched some old personal wounds, long healed but never forgoten. I think your story details a common pain felt by most gay youth. Thank-you -deeply- for sharing. It gives me a 'refreshed' PRIDE to hear stories like yours. All the best.

Brian - 08/04/99 06:23:40

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Michael Holobosky - 08/01/99 04:10:33
My Email:holoboski@actionisp.com

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I see your a traveller like myself. I spent alot of time down in Australia and New Zealand. When I was in England, I used to visit the Queens Head and do the "Gardens". Long Distance relationships are a heart breaker! What did you think of "get Real" the movie. It was popular in San Francisco but down played in the rest of the States. We have such a contradiction of puritanism and exhibitionis over here. best of luck in your life. Michael

Michael Holobosky - 08/01/99 04:10:32
My Email:holoboski@actionisp.com

andy - 07/31/99 21:40:23
My Email:j_andrew_andy@yahoo.com

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there is a reason for everything. perhaps your raison d'etre was to inspire others to work for a better world. you have done much to improve the situation for homosexuals in your school. good for you

Ricky - 07/31/99 06:24:02
My Email:rickys98@hotmail.com

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This is a Great web And I would Like for you to know that I think you are DAMN FINE so keep it up.

Ricky - 07/31/99 06:22:28
My Email:rickys98@hotmail.com

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so much fun to read about your experiences! Thanks and best of luck with the japanese and economics, I can't imagine a more difficult combination--I'm doing psychology and french myself... Thanks. Oh yes, you certainly do have the look of a Gaultier mode . Although fashion is a little behind here in Alaska I do see his stuff on tv and it is wonderful!

crow - 07/31/99 02:33:40
My Email:crowspirit13@yahoo.com

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just a quick note to tell you i enjoyed your site. i'm new to this whole inter-whatzit netty hoo--feeling (at 26) a bit behind the times. give me pen and paper any day. still and all--a pleasure to've "met" you P.

Jon - 07/30/99 15:51:57
My Email:snide8@yahoo.com

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Hello P Oh how your diary brought back memories, some,to recent to be memories! I wish you Happiness for it IS the one great gift in life! Jon

Stan Hibdon - 07/30/99 14:57:36
My Email:SH0951@centuryinter.net

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i hope i have a happy ending too!

Mark Kibby - 07/28/99 22:58:13
My Email:kib@umich.edu

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Your story was a great read. I can totally relate. Thanks for posting it.

sean - 07/27/99 05:57:19
My Email:adam-rickitt-fan@dtn.ntl.com

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Hi P! FINALLY !!! I've just got to read your coming out story - having been trying over & over again to be able to but with not much success.[ I sent you Email yesterday evening - Monday 26th july - telling you of the problems i'd been having trying to read your story. I also told you a little of my story & that i now @ 35 felt like being openly gay but was not exactly sure what that meant. ] Welll boy was it worth the wait...!!!! I've just finished reading it - i'm sitting here in tears..your story is fantastic- I laughed , i cried , i laughed ,i cried some more & i finally cheered [inside-not out loud although i wanted to.!!] as you "triumphed" over the homophobes reactions & treatment of you & Andy.....I coulld feel the emotion,the joy,dare i say relief when Andy was on stage being applauded. Great stuff !! -What a movie that scene alone would make..! [ Fingers crossed for P-THE MOVIE ! ] chuckle chuckle!! I never realised that there were pages like this on the net. [I've only been connected since July 2nd.] of which , more later.! It was only on Sunday 25th July @ around 6am i ,by chance,fate,callit what you will, somehow found a page entitled Matts place. I spent all that day,pausing only because my Gran called me for lunch,linking from one cute guy to the next.I found your link @ Jon Online - i sent him a question & he was good enough to reply to me the same day!! What a guy! His viewpoint really helped me out. In a way there is a similarity here - you callenged the homophobia that exists in society,particularky in a schhol environment, & i feel it is time to challenge the way - & i'll be blunt - FAT gay men are treated within the gay community - The cult of the "Adonis" or the Adam Rickitt six pac look or, as you experienced ,the waif like look is so prevalent. We are hounded,no i don't think that is to strong a word, int chubby chasing cliques who cannot have even the most passing relationship with the "Beautiful People." I hope that doesn't come over as bitter & twisted because i don't mean it to but my size has haunted me all my life. I was always a fat kid & that added to my overwhelming shyness & insecurity Plus the facts of me being aware that i wasn't " like other boys " & having the rumoumongers make me their prime suspect in the "he must be gay "stakes, meant i was bullied on many different levela @ once - for being fat,for being quiet & shy,for being from a "broken home"[how i hate that term!],for not having all the latest fashionable clothes a.because we couldn't afford them - i have 3 younger sisters as well -or b. even if we had the money nothing fashionable would fit me because i was fat., & most hurtful of all the homophobia - as the say "the truth hurts" & by god did it hurt.! I'm still paying the price today. The bullying,the stress of coping with my sexuality,the rejection i felt from my family[i was put into care by my "mother" who virtually washed her hands of me saying she couldn't cope[she didn't know i was gay as far as i know.] - gave me what was then called a nervous breakdown @ around 13/14 yrs. old. I suffereed ever worsening depressive episodes until 5/6 yrs. ago had to get help. I was eventually diagnosed as Manic Depressive & have been hospitalised twice - the last time bout 4yrs ago. The last spell was under section of the mental health act for a very bad attempt @ ending my life. I am on Lithium to stabilize my violent mood swings & Faverin for my depression. Things are beginning to feel good again.I've made efforts to be more self reliant again- asking to be allowed to do without my cpn(community psychiatric nures) & support worker. i'm slowly getting my life back on track laregly due to the effect of pages such as yours.Thank You I've just looked over the above & i'm sorry if it's a bit disjointed & all over the place but i've just realised this is the first time i've written any of my life down before!!! See what a good influence you are [grin] ! Please Email me.

Mark Barton - 07/27/99 04:35:20
My Email:maaku@ibm.net

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Well done on the coming out. I wish I'd been that self-aware and brave.

Uemura - 07/27/99 02:25:11
My Email:eusoufeliz@yahoo.com

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Hi! I'm very impressioned about your life's history. I'm a Brazilian 17 years old guy. I'm descendant of Japanese. What a courage. If I tell my parents that I'm gay, they would kill me! They never know that I had many boyfriends. Everybodie say that I'm a handsome boy... Hey people, man is the best thing that god mad to us GAY!!! Let's take advantage of!! Well here in Brazil there is an anual gay pride festival. It's cool. I've been in Londres once, it's a nice place. I love travel! I've been in India, Israel, Japan(loved), New York(loved), Paris(the best place I've been)... I inviting you to come to my country. It's a great and beatifull place. It will be a pleasure to meet you. Thank You, Grazie, Gracias, Arigato Gozaimasu, Merci, Obrigado!! Hugs and Kisses Mr Uemura

Uemura - 07/27/99 02:20:43
My Email:eusoufeliz@yahoo.com

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Hi! I'm very impressioned about your life's history. I'm a Brazilian 17 years old guy. I'm descendant of Japanese. What a courage. If I tell my parents that I'm gay, they would kill me! Well here in Brazil there is an anual gay pride festival. It's cool. 've been in Londres once, it's a nice place. I love travel! I've been in India, Israel, Japan(loved), New York(loved), Paris(the best place I've been)... I inviting you to come to our country. It's a great and beatifull place. It will be a pleasure to meet you. Thank You, Grazie, Gracias, Arigato Gozaimasu, Merci, Obrigado!! Hugs and Kisses Mr Uemura

Catherine Burr - 07/26/99 22:53:48
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Thebes/3013
My Email:catherineburr@yahoo.com

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As a straight female, I wanted to thank you for your LinkExchange banner that helped me discover the Gay Diary Web Ring. I have put a link to that on my home page. If anyone is interested, I have detailed my healing from bipolar disorder and current fig t against PTSD (non-gay yes, but Oscar Wilde is one of my heroes, because he was attacked for being a genius as well as for being bisexual). I commend all of us for using the Web to write our stories, so that we may touch the consciences of all who have earts to hear.

johniee - 07/24/99 20:08:44
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/9462/
My Email:johniee@geocities.com

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This page is so beautiful. It needs so much time to read erverything:-))) I like it

Peter Edmond - 07/16/99 14:24:08
My Email:pedmond@cyrano.com

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I wish I had the time to read all your story. Maybe not quite a best seller but certainly a very interesting and insightful view of growing up gay in modern britain. Although 25 years after my own experiences the basic thoughts and view of loneliness, rej ction and fear never seem to change. Will the world ever allow us to grow up "naturally". I have a dream, like Martin Luther-King's that one day all gay people will be viewed as just people and coming out will be unnecessary because no one will ever dare o assume that everyone is straight. Love your page, loved your insight, and loved your pictures. Could vene get to love you too on a spirituual basis. email e if you wish I would like to know more Peter

Fred Higdon - 07/16/99 04:15:06
My Email:fhigdon@ix.netcom.com

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A wonderful storey. Thanks for sharing.

alex - 07/15/99 22:57:21
My Email:alexandervonhAhotmail.com

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Do you go to Soas? I thought you were gay when I saw you, that is if it was you. S'il etait toi, ecrites-moi bientot.

David - 07/13/99 23:43:54
My Email:stkath@compuserve.com

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A fascinating read. Good for you deciding that you will not stay in the closet at work whatever the consequences. You are absolutely right.

kyle - 07/13/99 01:28:20
My URL:http://www.especiallyK.dreamhost.com
My Email:kyle@especiallyK.dreamhost.com

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You STILL get more people to sign your guestbook than me! DAMN! How can this be? We Americans do EVERYTHING better..... (hehe. Love ya P.) And hey you, reading this entry. Come sign a REAL guestbook. :) (And yes, I have to say, still a great read P.) Ciao! Kyle

Matthew - 07/12/99 11:52:54
My Email:badger8@hotmail.com

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I would just like to say that after reading your life that it sounds to me that you had a life like mine i am gay and i have a lot of straight friends and they don't care about the fact that i'm gay but the onlything i regret is that my dad died before i ot to tell him i think you are so lucky to be able to tell your dad.

Brody Pilbeam - 07/12/99 06:58:39
My Email:br0dy@hotmail.com

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Hi, I just read your coming out story. It was great to read that. Maybe there is such a thing as a happy ending after all. :) I'm really happy for you. Congratulations on what you did, Love Brody

Brody Pilbeam - 07/12/99 06:54:31
My Email:br0dy@hotmail.com

Kim Brunner - 07/12/99 06:01:13
My Email:kbrunner@home.com

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I'am a bit older than you,but can relate to the things that you write about in your diary,some real interesting stuff-but you still seem alittle losee gossee. but thats life. best to you K.B.

Destruction - 07/10/99 05:46:49
My Email:2 Peter 2

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For if God did not spare angels when they sinned, but sent them to hell, putting them into gloomy dungeons to be held for judgment; if he did not spare the ancient world when he brought the flood on its ungodly people, but protected Noah, a preacher of ri hteousness, and seven others; if he condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah by burning them to ashes, and made them an example of what is going to happen to the ungodly; and if he rescued Lot, a righteous man, who was distressed by the filthy lives of awless men (for that righteous man, living among them day after day, was tormented in his righteous soul by the lawless deeds he saw and heard) - if this is so, then the Lord knows how to rescue godly men from trials and to hold the unrighteous for the da of judgment, while continuing their punishment. This is especially true of those who follow the corrupt desire of the sinful nature and despise authority.

Sodom - 07/10/99 05:40:50
My Email:Genesis 19

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Before they had gone to bed, all the men from every part of the city of Sodom - both young and old - surrounded the house. They called to Lot, "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so we can have sex with them." Lot went outs de to meet them and shut the door behind him and said, "No my friends. Don't do this wicked thing."

DJ - 07/07/99 22:00:54
My URL:http://utopia.freehosting.net/
My Email:utopian@utopia.freehosting.net

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You history is inspertaional (excuse my spelling), i being bi, get hassled at school with them thinking i am gay, i know a few gay people at school, maybe i will try something like you have done, thank you

DA SILVA Victor - 07/07/99 14:39:42
My Email:frix150@yahoo.com

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Hello P I've just visited your site and I really enjoyed not only the site but also the webmaster. I'm Victro from France and I 'm sure that your dream of becoming a Jean PAUL gauthier model will come true...Good luck for the rest of your life

Gary - 07/07/99 12:10:16
My Email:thompson@gatwick.geoquest.slb.com

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Well, you had a right long time to work this little lot out eh! Good luck with the rest of your life! Luv Gary

Steve - 07/04/99 08:32:07
My Email:stevieboy@juno.com

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I truly enjoyed your web page and story. I salute you for sharing your experiences with all of us. Some segments brought tears to my eyes. Please fell free to drop me a line sometime. I get the feeling your a very special person. Best wishes, Steve California USA

Ken R - 07/03/99 22:12:44
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/~kenisin
My Email:kenisin@geocities.com

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Terrific that you shared your coming out stories. It will be very helpful for anyone that is in need of understanding about what they are going through. Your story shows others that they are not the only ones going through the helplessness and pain of not knowing what their life is about and why they are different and yet the same as others. Thank you for sharing. And the diary is a gift also.

Lucien C - 06/30/99 00:06:35
My Email:lulucland@hotmail.com

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That is a lot of wording..but it is very sincere of you!! And I believe after thinking deeply and look back on one's life do help a lot!! Good continuation!!

Crease - 06/27/99 17:42:54
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My Email:crease@england.com

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Hi, very interesting page mate. I love the passport pictures !!

- 06/27/99 15:58:52

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Tale really good and sincere with respect to stranger to someone else people . Such belongings well to tell the whole world but difficult close But This to show that you most of all like your tranquillity When beside you have appeared moral problems You immediately have decided have wanted to send them on your native people (parents) But their feelings at you no worry. Best regards. Alxndr

Patrick - 06/21/99 16:24:31
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My Email:patrick@mobilixnet.dk

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Hey.. I just wanted to say that I really liked your homepage.. and I hope that your experiences might help other boys and girls, to come out easier! With regards Patrick, Copenhagen Denmark

Ian - 06/19/99 23:25:14
My URL:http://i.am/ian2
My Email:flightstick69@hotmail.com

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hello...very nice site. i'm so sorry to hear about the bombing...i've had a few experiences like that before, where my friends might have been in trouble and i couldn't get in touch with them...scary. thanks for not hating americans too - i've wanted to move to london for the longest but some american stereotyping i've come across has kept me here. visit my site if you ever get the time. thanks...

shawn chesley - 06/17/99 13:34:47
My Email:babybanker69@yahoo.com

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Let me just say that after reading your most informative biography I am impressed.It takes alot to be honest with yourself something more people need to do.Sounds like your life is full and so different from mine.I could learn alot from someone like you!! My name is shawn and live in california and this E-mail thing is very new to me.Iam getting a chance to make new freinds and talk to people like yourself.Email me if you like I would love to converse with you.I am 35 yrs old gay,smart attractive ,witty an a great friend to all who know me.have a great day.

dwayne - 06/13/99 15:11:55
My Email:dwayne844@aol.com

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great web page. more should be like this. keep it up the great work

Lee - 06/11/99 12:27:01
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My Email:leemo@innocent.com

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although you wrote the story for yourself, it's still one of the most honest and touching stories of coming out. i deeply admired your courage. sincerely yours bingram

Bart Moore - 06/07/99 19:25:14
My Email:mooreb@advisory.com

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I read your coming out diary in full while taking a break to eat lunch at work today. I thoroughly enjoyed it, and was deeply impressed by your fortitude and courageous sense of self. Congratulations to you. I only regret on reading it that I didn't ha e your same courage as a teenager, but rather agonized over coming out until well into my twenties. It does seem that it is getting somewhat easier for young people to be open about their sexuality, thanks in part to the steps men and women like you have taken. Admiringly, Bart Moore Washington, DC

Jeff Polito - 06/06/99 12:14:21
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