Hi,
I am a 19 year old American Thai.I admire your strength for
what you
did.I too went through a lot of hardships after I confessed
to my best
friend that I was gay.After that day of confession he never
talked to
me again.He was afarid that I would make a move on his younger
borther
if not him.That was three years ago and I still miss his
friendship.When I was 13 my step brother who is six years older
to me
fondled me in the shower and from that day on we slept with
eachother
untill the day he got a girlfriend.And now he says that he hates
me
because I tried to mak him a gay???So I was afarid to come out
in the
open.After reading your story it has given me hope that maybe
my mom
will accept me for who I am.And maybe I might have the strength
to put
my picture on my website with the words 'GAY N PROUD'.
Thank You for sharing your story,
Luv,
Mark. |
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Hit |
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22/Jul/2000:17:27:28 |
Well done, this is an excellent site. Good to see that you have
taken
time out and looked at your life some thing I should have done!
Nice touch with the speaking vocals is it your voice? lets me
know
Yours in the true meaning of friendship (yittmof)
regards
Hit |
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David Batchelor |
Batchcorps |
22/Jul/2000:16:55:50 |
Just found your site via a news group. I am impressed and will
check it out now and again. My name is David I left England
some
nine years ago to live in the States where I have been working
and
generally getting my stuff sorted.
It is so important to tell our stories and answer questions
for
people. Looking for sameness is such a drag we all need to
explore the differences and appreciate the diversity.
Good luck
David |
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james |
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22/Jul/2000:09:21:04 |
i was moved by your story i my self do not like to think of
myself being gay but in the bast i have had gay realationship
but noone knows about i think your story will help me a lot
thank you a lot |
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Brad |
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21/Jul/2000:06:38:59 |
I just read your coming out story, and it truely
touched me. I, myself, is just getting comfortable
about being gay, but I think I've had it easier.
Everybody that I have told has been real supportive, in
the manner that it's no big deal. I don't know if it's
because I live in the USA, or I just have great friends.
Unfortunately, I haven't told my family, but the time will
come. The only thing important in my life that I try to
concentrate on, is to be happy with myself. I remember
when I asked my friend, Megan, is she could anybody else
who would she be. Her answer, was herself. I asked her
why she made that decision, and she said, that if is she
had to anybody else, then she couldn't be herself. That
answer really impressed, and made me realize that I should
feel the same. Anyway, I found your story to be real
inspiring, and you seem like a really great person. You
seem like someone that I could learn a lot from, and
someone cool to just be around. Well, I hope I d |
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Chris Hayes |
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19/Jul/2000:04:01:38 |
Enjoyed your Web site. It should be required reading for parents,
teachers and students.
Thanks |
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Pavikorn |
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17/Jul/2000:04:05:00 |
Hi P!
I have just come to visit your homepage. I think you have many
thing in
your life looked like mine. If you don't mind to share. I so
appreciate to
receive your mail soon.
Bye |
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Len |
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15/Jul/2000:20:30:06 |
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Hi You are an amazing young man. Would love to meet you |
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Matthew |
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10/Jul/2000:19:50:32 |
I've just dipped into your diary. The coming out story was fascinating
-
they always are - a rite-of-passage which we can all identify
with, even
if we havn't been there ourselves (me!). I shall return at a
later
date to read more. Say more about the different perceptions
that one has
of the world as a gay/straight person. How things are based
on
the assumption that the consumer/audience is straight, etc.
See you at
Club Kali sometime. |
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Gordon |
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08/Jul/2000:04:16:28 |
I enjoyed reading your coming out story. It was so incredible.
I am now
reading your diary from the beginning of what is on your site.
I really
find it to be so open and honest. Thank you for making this
available.
I have been in the closet all my life and coming out now would
serve no
purpose. I wish I would have been able to do what you have when
I was
16. Look forward to reading you updates as they come out.
Gordon |
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David |
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07/Jul/2000:20:19:40 |
Really liked your page, nice pictures and will now work my through
the
rest of the site now! |
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Matt |
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05/Jul/2000:13:28:51 |
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More dicks everywhere!!! |
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ken |
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04/Jul/2000:03:22:56 |
quite a story. put together well. i admire your courage. it
is always a
struggle to be oneself gay or otherwise. it's just that ours
is a higer
hill and a bigger thrill when we arrive. lov on ya, fly |
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rick rogers |
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04/Jul/2000:00:37:33 |
I enjoyed your history because I have been there, too. I was
never
able to come out due to several situations that required being
discrete, but I am sure many knew or suspected that I was gay.
I also
had few friends, and still do. I do not get to enjoy myself
like I
would like, or share with a regular partner, but I still dream.
I felt
the teasing and harassment of others, but have overcome all
threats and
taunts. I wish you joy and pleasure in the future. I have been
to
England 6 times, and understand some of the legal and social
threats
you face, but they are getting better. Sometimes success is
limited
and slow in coming. You have the will to succeed. A true believer
in
my motto, "If at first you don't succeed (suck seed), suck
a little
harder." Rick |
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01/Jul/2000:00:21:05 |
Is it wrong to throw a live chicken off a two-story building?
I don't
think so! It's a hell of a lot better than killing it and eating
it's
flesh. The chicken wasn't seriously hurt, so why the hell do
those
animal rights activists wanting to throw a guy in jail for doing
it on
a radio show? It doesn't make sense! Am I wrong? Am I sick and
perverse
for thinking that it's okay to throw a chicken off a building?
Stupid
satanic animal freaks...(Yeah, they're satanic. Killing an animal
unless in defense of for food is a sin it you're satanic. Same
with
children, because "they're the only creatures that are
truly innocent".
Hey, I'll have to remember that one.) But back to the chicken.
Is it
okay to put someone in JAIL for chucking it off a building?
Actually, I
think it was a parking garage, but that's beside the point.
The law is
fucked! It's that movie "Chicken Run", it's gotten
to everyone's brain.
There must be some hidden messages in it, because everyone's
a lot
crazier than usual. |
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Jack |
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30/Jun/2000:14:48:37 |
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Interesting |
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Michael |
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30/Jun/2000:07:28:26 |
Great site, great page. Just stumbled on to it. You are on a
great
journey. Reminds me of some of the words of a song "I have
moved and
have kept on moving. Proved the points that I needed proving.
Lost the
friends that I needed moving. Found others on the way."
May God
continue to guide you on that journey.
Love you P. It would be great to meet you one day. |
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Andy Victor |
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29/Jun/2000:18:38:42 |
I love your diary. Keep writing and share your thoughts. I am
married, but BI and I enjoy sex with men. I can share more of
my
experiences with you if you wish to read my writings. God bless
you. |
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Andy |
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29/Jun/2000:18:36:15 |
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Silverboy |
Silverboy´s
Page |
29/Jun/2000:04:59:18 |
a href="http://apollo.spaceports.com/~silverbo/"img
src="http://gay.young-erotism.com/olliboy/banner.JPG"
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Silverboy |
Silverboy´s
Page |
29/Jun/2000:04:56:44 |
Hi
I come from Germany and my English is not good!
your Page is verry verry nice!
Hallo
Ich hoffe du kannst auch Deutsch!
Deine Homepage ist Superklasse!
mein Komplimen!
ich hoffe, das ich dich auchmal auf meiner Homepage begrEen
darf!
Gruß Silverboy |
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Chris |
Slap
-&- Tickle |
28/Jun/2000:18:06:46 |
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Great story. Very well thought out and executed. Good luck to
you. |
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tarlach |
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28/Jun/2000:00:03:02 |
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really good a great idea. |
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vincent |
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25/Jun/2000:17:47:16 |
Thank you for posting your life on the internet. We are from
very
different backrounds and you hold a bravery that I am years
away from
needing. Although 26 I am only 5 months into realisation, your
insight
is both comforting and reassuring. Thank you.
Vince |
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vincent |
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25/Jun/2000:17:31:37 |
Thank you for posting your life on the internet. We are from
very
different backrounds and you hold a bravery that I am years
away from
needing. Although 26 I am only 5 months into realisation, your
insight
is both comforting and reassuring. Thank you.
Vince |
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vincent |
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25/Jun/2000:17:22:21 |
Thank you for posting your life on the internet. We are from
very
different backrounds and you hold a bravery that I am years
away from
needing. Although 26 I am only 5 months into realisation, your
insight
is both comforting and reassuring. Thank you.
Vince |
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adam |
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23/Jun/2000:22:07:15 |
I've just spent an absolute age reading your personal story-
i think
the way you dealt with things is so admirable. I'm not out,
but
seriously considering doing so shortly- unfortunately i've never
had
friends close enough that i feel able to talk to. I don't reckon
it'd
come as much of a surprise to most people, as they often seem
to enjoy
talking about my sexuality. Well anyway to cut out the waffle,
i'll
just say that the help and encouragement i got from your story
was
invaluable-i know my mum will be the most difficult to tell,
but i'm
gonna set about now to finding a gay person to talk to about
such
things. Unfortunately after about 3/4 e-mails they all switch
to
asking for one thing!!!!
Thanks once again
adam
xxx |
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daniel |
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21/Jun/2000:23:52:29 |
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i really enjoyed your page. |
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David |
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20/Jun/2000:23:44:00 |
Hi Philip-
I really like your site. You certainly have a knack for being
a prolific
writer. Good job.
David
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M |
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18/Jun/2000:05:47:55 |
I only wish that I had the guts that you have shown through
your story
of coming out.
I go have gone through and conintue to go through much of what
you
describe.
-M+ |
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M |
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18/Jun/2000:05:46:35 |
I only wish that I had the guts that you have shown through
your story
of coming out.
I go have gone through and conintue to go through much of what
you
describe.
-M+ |
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Volsce |
My Stories |
15/Jun/2000:21:26:17 |
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Nice pictures :-) like the set up and effort. |
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Scott |
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14/Jun/2000:21:52:16 |
Nice diary, very insightful and well written.
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jonathan |
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13/Jun/2000:05:22:24 |
Great...I wish you well and all the best.
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Jim |
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12/Jun/2000:21:05:34 |
I really wish things had been the way you describe them, thirty
or
forty years ago when i was going through the same torments.
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Rick |
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12/Jun/2000:18:08:46 |
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inspiring and brave. |
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Keith |
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12/Jun/2000:08:32:09 |
I read you comming out story adn thought that it was
great that you could write all of you personal life
down on paper. Right now I'm going through much the same
the same thing and find it real hard. I'm 21 and
live in a town where everyone seems to know everyone
else. So far I'v come out to only one of my friends.
This after a long talk and some deep soul searching on my part.
Good luck in the future
Keith from Canada |
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Jim Rotner |
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11/Jun/2000:21:14:46 |
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Thanks |
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Murdock |
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08/Jun/2000:22:49:19 |
He hallo nice site!
How old are you by the way. Nice Pics!
Sending you the best from the netherlands!
Hope to hear from you!
greetings, |
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Ed |
QueerWorld |
08/Jun/2000:08:40:53 |
Your f*cking forum still isn't working! Have you received my
e-mail??
Ed |
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Lee |
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04/Jun/2000:19:34:24 |
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Thank's, I needed this. |
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Chester |
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04/Jun/2000:15:55:38 |
Recently I have read through the webpage of this kind, and found
your
webpage pretty amazing. Your coming-out story is really encouraging
me
to follow your footstep. You know, coming out is pretty hard
because
first, one has to be brave enough, and second, one would be
afraid of
the possible consequences. However, a gay person always wants
to do so
in order to relieve the burden from the heart. YOU HAVE REALLY
DONE A
GREAT JOB! |
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Rob |
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03/Jun/2000:01:34:04 |
I came out in the last year of 6th form as well [last yr], and
that
really helped my self esteem. I had the same sort of sequence
as you -
general disbelief followed by acceptance, as they realised that
i
definately hadn't changed - this was me all along. I have also
done the
same at uni, where i'm in my 1st yr, but [probably the age differece]
i
was accepted straight away - they even want to know if i find
them
attractive or not! |
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john reagan |
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01/Jun/2000:18:34:24 |
LOVE TO SEE PEOPLE GROW AND REACH THEIR FULLEST POTENTIAL.BORN
AT A
TIME 1939 WHEN IT WAS MORE OF A HORROR STORY,TO BE GAY I APPLAUDE
YOUR
COURAGE THE ENTRAPMENT OF ANOTHER GENERATION NO LONGER HAS ANY
POWER.
GOD BLESS YOU YOUR FAMILY FOR NOT REJECTING
YOU. BEST REGARDS, JOHN |
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Tim |
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01/Jun/2000:05:30:53 |
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Lurvly story p |
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Alf |
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01/Jun/2000:03:13:42 |
Really cool site.
You are one interesting, funny, cute fellow.
If you ever plan to visit San Francisco you have aplace to stay.
(I know I might regret this later but what the heck. Just make
sure you
call ahead and find out if there's still room.)
Ta for now!
love,
Alf
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Nathan H |
Nathan's
Day |
31/May/2000:06:40:40 |
Hi There,
Was refreshing to read your site and have a look into someone
else's
life, be it much more interesting than mine.
Its a really good site, with fantastic pictures to match. Keep
up the
good work, look forward to talking soon
Bye Now From Australia,
Nath |
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Frank |
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31/May/2000:04:38:04 |
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You go girl!! You are doing a great job - keep it up! |
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colin ashton |
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29/May/2000:20:29:39 |
I think your site is brilliant and would like to congratulate
you on
it's success.
keep it up
colin |
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Paul |
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29/May/2000:19:32:22 |
Hi,I read your guestbook and it`s really amazing how many diffrent
people visit your homepage!I know I`m not as good a writer as
some of
your guests are and my English is just some poor schoolenglish
at
Germany.But there`s this guy ,Kiusuke,who writes sooo CUTE..
I think if
by any chance you should write to him.Really!I would If I had
his
adress... |
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Kev |
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29/May/2000:13:20:13 |
I just finished reading 'history of P'. It's a great story and
I must
say congratuations on chacging the views of a whole school!!!
:-) I'm
going to show it to some of my friends -- they're not gay but
I think
it will change the what think about me (they are great people
in the
way they took it when I told then I'm gay).
You've brightened up an otherwise rainy day (and that's not
a metephor).
Kev. |
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A gay 14-year-old
in |
wouldn't that
give my identy away??? |
29/May/2000:11:42:54 |
I found your history of comeing out a great help. I've told
a few
people but not meny. Thanx. It's a great site. |
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Alain |
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28/May/2000:12:34:45 |
Sunday afternoon and I should have been out in the fresh air
but
instead spent it reading your history and (some of) the diary.
Very
compelling. I may email you later with some more comments
Alain |
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Bryan |
Tyloi |
28/May/2000:08:49:31 |
P. It is about 4am, had nothing better to do then surf the web,
and wa
la.. stumbled accross your site. You tell a wonderfull story.
Mine
however would consist of 3 words.. "I came out" Any
way, I just want
to say hi, and Good Luck...
Sincerly,
Bryan |
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Andrew |
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28/May/2000:07:50:47 |
Hi there, I have read your comin-out stories and just today
on the
freaky internet guy and i must say it was truly amazing.
Sorry for being mushy but i after reading your diary twice i
truly felt
inspired and felt that the world not a very big place after
all. It
gives me the hope and courage knowing there are people like
you are
also going through life as a gay and you don't know what a relief
it
can be from a guy in an Asian country.
I am a Malaysian Chinese and being a gay in Malaysia is anything
but
easy. Many of us are still "in the closet" and don't
talk about it
freely because many are still prejudice against us. Thay treat
us
differently and this can really make a person feel down, depressed,
confined and lonely all at once.
Your comin-out stories has given me hope and courage in many
ways and
when i feel down and all that crap i know now that there are
people
like you and me who are also struggling and knowing that our
life
journey ain't that different after all.
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Paula |
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27/May/2000:08:13:48 |
I found your story very touching. Your fears
-&- triumps heartning. I related very well with
everything you went through. I really enjoyed
reading your diary -&- I will try to pass it
on to my friends. |
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Kiusuke |
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26/May/2000:21:41:57 |
My feelings aren `t easy to describe. It would be stupid to
tell you how
cute you are looking, because I am sure that too much compliments
are
given only without telling the truth. I can only ensure you
that my
heart isn `t crying... I hope that you trust me if I tell you
I `m not
sad that I have to leave "you" (=your website). By
the way... I can `t
stop lying. I hope you understa |
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Niclas Berggren |
The Home Page
of Niclas Berggren |
26/May/2000:09:58:14 |
A most inspiring site - not the least for an anglophile interested
in
reading about the doings of a rather intriguing student. |
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Larry Young |
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26/May/2000:00:40:40 |
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Really enjoyed it. |
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Sandy Pettus
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25/May/2000:19:25:16 |
I Know just what you were going through, as I am going through
it now
at the age of 56. I have always known, but I grew up dening
it and
could not let myself accept it or myself until now. |
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goddard |
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25/May/2000:13:45:22 |
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what a wonderful sory and what guts |
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Jerry |
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24/May/2000:04:23:22 |
Hey P! I just wanted to let you know that in case you didn't
know you
have a regular reader here in America. Love what you've done
with the
website. All that hardwork has paid of(ha)! Good luck in all
you do
and may ALL your dreams/goals become a reality. Sincerely, Jerry
W. |
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William Baker |
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23/May/2000:09:50:16 |
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I hope life is good to you, all the best. |
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Karl |
mr smith goes to
wall street |
22/May/2000:04:22:51 |
you're an extremely handsome and intelligent guy. i've enjoyed
reading
your journal. thanks for sharing with us. you should check out
mine
sometime. i'll be in england this autumn, love going there and
try to go
as often as i can.
warm regards,
karl |
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joseph |
read above |
21/May/2000:09:48:11 |
hey groovy story. i read it. i'm 14 (on june 27 -15)i'm gay
and i've
come out to 8 people including myself. your story was interesting
and
your accent was sexy. here's to gay people! good look "p".
u seem
like a nice guy. cute too. |
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Mark Tacy |
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21/May/2000:01:41:04 |
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Carlos |
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20/May/2000:18:57:12 |
Hi, I just wanted to say that I loved your story. I admire you
for you
went through. I'm kind of the same way the thing is that I'm
still in
the closet and 18 years old. I don't know what to do. I'll enjoy
chatting with you once in a while, maybe been friends. Take
care, and
once again, interesting story. |
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CARSON |
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20/May/2000:15:57:48 |
I'm thinking...
Don't hate me for saying this, but you sound like 'an amazing
person'.
Sorry, had to be said.
I admire the decisions you have made in your life, and wish
I could do
the same. Being seventeen and gay is a bitch when nobody knows.
I have been on the net pretty much all day, and pray to god
the phone
bill isn't too huge (i don't pay it, you see). You're site's
the only
decent thing I've found. It's worth the money.
Thanx for inspiration
Carson |
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CARSON |
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20/May/2000:15:53:01 |
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Peter Hogarth |
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18/May/2000:15:06:18 |
I read your story of your coming out and would just like to
say thatI
respect your courage and honesty.As a middle aged married man
who at my
time of life is very confused by the fact that I have been having
liasons with other males and has no way of unravelling the emotional
turmoil this is causing, your words have made me at least realise
that
I am not a freak.
Thnk you
Peter. |
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Steven |
Steven's Gay
Pages |
18/May/2000:12:37:00 |
Hello
You really do have fine site here. I enjoyed reading your entries
about
coming out and your journeys through life. I have put a website
up for
the first time, it is a big step for me and plan to document
my life
and thoughts as well.
Thanks, Steven |
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Larry C Mooney |
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18/May/2000:05:05:58 |
I really enjoyed your story. When I get the time I will tell
you mine.
I am 36 and things were much different for me. Horribly different!
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Daren |
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17/May/2000:00:47:06 |
Thanks for your honesty...
I waited until after graduating from Rice University to sit
myself down
and admit I wasn't going to loose my attraction to guys. What
a relief
that was...in one day I felt completely at ease with being gay
and
realized in an instant that I always had lots of gay friends.
I had
just pushed the "signs" out of my mind until that
day. I should have
come out when you did, rather than punishing myself for 5 more
years.
It's been 30 years now and I've never regretted getting honest
with
myself. I'm in Austin, Texas...a great place to be gay.
Keep up the good work. I'm looking forward to more of your
delightfully open honesty! |
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Roger |
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15/May/2000:23:28:37 |
Great story. You should be very proud of how you handled the
situation. I wish you the best in all you do. |
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Alfred Powell
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11/May/2000:22:19:41 |
I wish my life turned out as well as yours. I 78/11/29 stil
in closet
and still a virgin . do have plenty fantasies , but do damm
scared |
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paul |
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10/May/2000:20:59:22 |
Hello! As requested, I'm sending you a short note after having
read
your coming out story. I've saved your page, as I want to read
some
more, if not all, of your diary. I don't really know why other
than the
fact that I find it so nice to read, what is to this point,
such a
positive story, although I'm sure you've had your ups and downs
since
your 18th birthday! How's that for a run-on sentence? Anyway,
I won't
prattle on as you don't know me - but I'm Paul, from nearby
Madison,
Wisconsin - and I don't want to be more of a bore than I usually
am.
Cheerio! |
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moshe |
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10/May/2000:20:07:08 |
I really liked your site. I like the way you write.
You're cute...
MM |
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Mike Schaefer |
Mike's Page! |
10/May/2000:15:24:31 |
Very cool and awesome web page!
Check out mine :) |
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WONG |
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10/May/2000:05:32:01 |
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I enjoyed reading it. |
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PJ |
Celebration
2000 |
10/May/2000:02:17:22 |
Seems I saw you picture on a man named Jon's web site. You sure
are
handsome. You and your visitors check out my page and joint
in the
party. |
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Mark |
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09/May/2000:09:56:55 |
It's never easy coming out, especially to family and friends
who have
for years been left in the dark. I always found it easy to tell
complete strangers, and for years I convinced myself that doing
this
was all I needed to do to keep myself from cracking up.
I was a lot older than you when I came out to my parents, and
they were
fantastic. They told me that they had always known, but felt
it was
for me to tell them, rather than for them to ask me. My one
regret now
is not coming out earlier on in my life, I know that I've missed
out on
so much in holding back for so long.
Well done to you.
Best wishes
Mark x |
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