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Daniel |
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23/Aug/2002:05:24:13 |
Hi P,
I was feeling down today when I came
online...I started to look for some
answers on the web (as one does) to
the problems that have been depressing
me of late;
then I found your site... Let's just
say you have a new reader. Thanks for
being such an inspiration. Daniel. |
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Pitt |
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17/Aug/2002:04:49:13 |
a nice page and it`s lovely,and hope
you will do better! |
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Alan |
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13/Aug/2002:00:17:54 |
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call me: (330)310-0911 |
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graham |
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12/Aug/2002:20:03:48 |
Dear P
I am an older guy, I have recomended
your page to quite a few people that I
have counselled because you delt with
your experience of rape so well. I
have wanted to write to you many times
to say how well you have done and let
you know that I have recomended your
page to several people who have been
sexually abused in different ways. I
think it is important that you know
that by writing your experiences and
feelings and your struggles you have
helped other people. I just want to
say to you well done.
Dare I add one personal note for you,
please be patient with yourself and
your relationships. We are affected by
our past and if I could just add one
word to you it would be the
following"be kind to yourself and your
own needs". I could say a lot more,
but I do not want to tell you what to
do or what to think, you must find
your own way and you are doing very
well. I just want you to know that
your own journey and sharing the
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Klaus Hansen |
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12/Aug/2002:15:10:24 |
thanks for some great pages - I
especially enjoyed the coming out
story. I'm a 22 yr old norwegian boy
having just started my own coming out,
and it really helps knowing there are
real people with real stories out
there.
ps: the red brick building in your
travel journal is the town hall in
Toulouse...:) |
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michael |
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12/Aug/2002:14:22:18 |
I have to say it was a pleasure looking at your homepage.
Someone can
get to know a bit about you . .. and it isn't all about sex.
*grin*
Cheers! |
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Damien.J. |
not built yet |
10/Aug/2002:12:07:51 |
You are everything that I wish I was.
If I have to 'come out' to someone online
I have the "I'm Gay" bit to do first, then comes the crunch:-
I have to tell them that I'm Disabled - which some guys find
a real "Put Off."
I use a wheelchair, I have a horrible walking problem which
I
dare not tell you, I have epilepsy, pernicious anaemia and
a
mingin oral condition as well.
Life isn't easy P, aaaahhh the world revolves upon the phrase
"IF ONLY!"
I love your site - your openess is a beautiful thing and please
keep on being you because You Are A Beautiful Guy:- Inside
as
well as outside.
Love Be With You.
Damien.J.
CxxxxxC MMII |
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09/Aug/2002:16:35:42 |
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mark |
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05/Aug/2002:08:47:41 |
hey great site you have here!!! btw i
love the coming out story !!! well
thats my problem to how can i say to my
parents and relative that im!!!! you
know!!!! |
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Tamara |
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04/Aug/2002:16:53:23 |
I think you are a wonderful person for
sharing your experiences with everyone.
You are very eloquent and seem like a
great person. Also I just have to add
that you're very good looking. |
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emile |
Emile's homepage |
02/Aug/2002:15:41:40 |
Great site, very enlightening coming out story, i imagine
if i had come
out at school it would have gone along similar lines, but
who can
really tell.
ps, linked from outintheuk id=emiles
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Anthony Camacho |
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02/Aug/2002:11:34:46 |
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Well done! |
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Jordan |
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30/Jul/2002:18:38:41 |
I read your lil' coming out story, and I have to say I'm impressed.
I'm
only 15, and I'm in a totally different situation, but I still
feel
very... Releived, I guess. Coming out to my imediate family
wasn't very
hard, but I'm still in the closet to most 'others'. Reading
a coming
out story like yours makes me feel alot better about all the
insecurity, and I'm grateful you put it up.
By the way, I've never signed a guestbook before, because
I was afraid
of doing something stupid- so, if I've done something stupid,
pretend
it didn't happen. Oh, and I love japanese. I'm trying to teach
myself,
but that's not working out very well- If only we stupid U.S.Americans
could teach something besides Spanish and French in our high-schools
(though they do teach Italian every once in a while). In anycase,
thanx, and I enjoyed your site! |
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Gustavo |
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30/Jul/2002:08:21:52 |
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Great looking site. |
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Tom |
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25/Jul/2002:20:02:12 |
You are so lucky in discovering who you are, and accepting
yourself at
an early age. I'm 38, with two small kids and a wife (like
your french
married friend) and still cannot come to terms with who I
am. I am
fortunate in that my looks coupled with gaydar, enabling me
to have
experiences, have kept me sane, and I admire your journal.
Keep up the
good work! |
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Johan |
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25/Jul/2002:16:13:57 |
Hi there
Thanx 4 sharing your life with every one.
I always thought that I'm the only one who had a hard time
coming out,
yours beat mine by far! Your story made me proud to say I'm
gay.
Please send me some info about gay life in London. I just
arriver from
South Africa and is pretty lost( confused ) in your huge city.
Thax a mil
Johan Otto
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Alexander |
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24/Jul/2002:18:25:28 |
Dear P
I read with interest and concern your
latest diary update. I used to work in
the financial/property services
industry. I also incidentally know
reputable individuals, my Stepdad being
one of them who has himself worked in
the Investment industry for over 30
years, and they are saying be very
careful about investing in a Pension
Fund. Even though you are 26, it would
make better sense to invest in a low
risk investment vehicle such as an ISA
or ethical investment bond; where you
will get a steady return on your
investment. But don't expect a massive
return over the next 10-20 years. These
investments are low to medium risk,
with matching returns. However, you
could 'cherry pick' stock market
shares, but you would need to track the
market carefully. If you go for bonds
or isa's make sure they have a good
spread of at least 50% of the fund held
in short term cash deposits by the
fund's managers. These types of schemes
have bond holder protection schemes |
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Vertigo |
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24/Jul/2002:05:50:31 |
I just happened to stumble on your website...but i'm glad
i did. It's
beautiful! (and so are you!) All i would have to do is change
the name
in your comming out story and it could be my life story. All
of the
support that you have and continue to recieve makes a theory
come alive
in my head. What if we could flip the virtual internet world
with the
real world so that everyone could be their true self. Because
no one is
afraid to be their real self behind the computer screen. And
the ones
who are themselves even in the real world would be the leaders
of this
theoretical world. That's just my thoughts...
Hey, you keep up the good work man!
"P".S when am i gonna get some behind the scenes literature
from P?
Because i took that poll and clicked "yes" twice on the "sleep
with P"
question! =-) i want a P(eep) show!
- Vertigo aka " V " |
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Jerry |
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17/Jul/2002:19:39:55 |
P : I loved your "coming-out" story. It can be painful ! I
was almost
fifty years old before I had the courage to recognize my true
self and
sexuality. I finally did and have never been the least sorry.
I have
a wonderful partner and we've been together almost ten years.
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Mike Cutcin |
IR |
15/Jul/2002:22:48:49 |
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Good Work. |
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bar |
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13/Jul/2002:22:25:23 |
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VERY TOUCHED BY YOUR STORY |
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Guy |
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13/Jul/2002:05:16:10 |
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Anyone from CT in USA im me or e-mail me at GHETTOWHTBOYBPT@aol.com
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Guy |
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13/Jul/2002:05:12:55 |
I love your story and its helps me in
many ways considering I am going to
school still. In your story I found a
lot of things i can relate too. Also i
have to say you are very cute with
short hair. -Luv- ya baby. |
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anthony yarbrough ag |
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11/Jul/2002:10:52:51 |
Thank you for your story it causes me to remember back to
when i came
out. you are very attractive! write sometime |
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Stephen |
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11/Jul/2002:01:04:39 |
PART II (I know this is a right cheek, but here goes ...)
I'm sure it will be nowhere as glamourous as this address
but having
come across this website I am inspired now to establish my
own
domain/lighthouse for all those guys who got married and frankly
got it
wrong (largely because our generally heterocentric society
told them
so).
I'm not in the business of breaking up happy families, but
I am more
than inclined to say, 'Are you sure this is what you want?
And how do
you think you'll feel when you're sixty and doing the shopping
with the
wife in Sainsburys and out of the corner of you're are eyeing
up the
raunchy young blond shelf-stacker'?
At this stage you will regret so much more than the sex you
might have
had, you will regret utterly that you never experienced the
love and
apprieciation of another man that you will realise you had
yearned from
ever since you were a child.
That to me is what being gay is and we owe it to those that
don't know
to tell them so.
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Stephen |
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11/Jul/2002:01:00:34 |
If you have been through the shit of all hard times then the
best thing
you can do is to make your testimony and tell your story in
all it's
darkest and most miserable detail, because in reality what
you are
establishing a new 'light-house', a new beacon, a clear and
frank guide
to 'coming out' that others in your wake can follow.
What you have written here is really inspirational stuff and
what I
can't help but wonder is, if I had access to an account such
as yours
when I was 18 years old, then perhaps I would not have buried
my
sexuality to the extent of getting married etc. etc. and trying
to
paper over the cracks until at the age of 38 I finally realised
that
enough was enough, that the lies had to stop and for all the
pain it
would cause my wife it was time to bring down the curtain
on a
relationship of ten years, because it was time to come out
and
say 'Hey World, I'm Gay!!'
I'm sure it will be nowhere as glamourous as this address
but having
come across this website |
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Jason C. Nesbitt |
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10/Jul/2002:23:39:36 |
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Hi |
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Daniel |
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09/Jul/2002:13:13:26 |
Hi P
I have just finished reading your coming-out story and I must
say that
it was absolutely inspirational. Just reading your story has
given me
new hope that I can be accepted for the kind of person I am,
regardless
of sexual preference. I have for quite some time now been
considering
coming out to my family and friends, and your story has given
me the
extra help I needed to be able to do this, and live my life
the way I
want to, as the person I really am. By sharing your life stories
with
everyone, you have helped people in a profound way as they
can relate
to you and the experiences in which you have lived through,
and know
that they are not alone. I would like to thank you for sharing
your
life with everyone, and wish you all the best for the future.
Daniel. |
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Norwegian |
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02/Jul/2002:16:47:54 |
You have a really nice site! I've just
read your entire coming-out story, and
it was great. ŽÏ'm glad that someone
bothers to make homepages like this
one, so that the rest of us gays can
read about experienced problems and
victories.
And by the way: You look really
handsome!
Good luck in life |
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Jack |
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29/Jun/2002:21:30:10 |
A fantastic account of coming out. Average experiences, but
told in a
well-written, realistic, unsentimental and above all entertaining
style,
unlike so many other personal websites. I don't think you
ever stop
coming out: only today I was wondering about telling my manager.
The
first few times I told anybody were incredibly important to
me, and I
would be on a high for the next 24 hours. These days, things
have calmed
down, but it's still nice when you get a positive reaction.
I have only
had one really negative reaction so far, and he is still a
close friend
- indeed last time I saw him I actually got him reading some
of
Attitude.
Anyway, am off to explore the rest of the site... |
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Colin |
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28/Jun/2002:22:22:08 |
I really felt for you in coming out, l dont think it was easy
for
anyone to do ,l had my first gay experience at 11 years old
and it
seemed really natural, even at school l went with most of
the boys in
my school and l did not know what l was diong was wrong and
that was
way back in 1956 left school in 1960 aged 15 l only found
out what it
was called when l was 17, it would be nice to write my own
story as l
have had a good life being gay , by the way my school was
in barnet and
was a secondary modern, keep up the good work, l also have
had to put
up with a stammer all my life which sometimes makes things
harder
bye Colin |
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Andrew |
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24/Jun/2002:18:08:13 |
Hi P,
I have just found your site after reading about it in Boyz
Magazine.
What a site! what a story!. You must have alot of courage
and self
assurance to be able to put feelings and experiences like
that down on
the web for all and sundry to read. Im 27 and ive been out
for about 5
years now, and like you it took alot of courage, tears and
fear to be
able to be comfortable with myself and then to be able to
comfront
others in my life and tell them who I really was and end the
lie that
I had been living since I was about 10yrs old. Even though
we have
never met, I feel, like others no doubt, that I know you quite
well
from reading you diary. At least we all know you as well as
you let
us. But I can imagine that you still find it as hard as I
do when
comfronting new people in life to be able to be open with
them about
who you really are. I'm ranting now so I'll sign off but please
drop
me a line if you like and we can talk, email penpals maybe?
Best regards and good luck.
Andrew |
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Kelly |
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24/Jun/2002:14:19:39 |
Hi!
Thank you for sharing your Coming Out story! It was very
interesting to me as I am just starting to go through it myself.
You
are a great writer. You sound like a very couragious guy,
and you
have a lot to be proud of.
Thanks!
Kelly (In California)
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jeff |
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24/Jun/2002:14:03:17 |
...after having just left a public message in the forum, i
now notice
the more appropriate means available to say that it was a
pleasure
meeting you at Randy's last night. thanks for passing along
your web
address. i have enjoyed the site greatly.
jeff (aka howdy - honestly, i don't usually dress so ridiculously)
by the way, one of my friends just started a website that
you might find
interesting (www.ortizweb.com). i've passed your address along
to him
as i think he might find your gay content interesting (he
wants similar
for his). |
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Paul Fenton |
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23/Jun/2002:16:08:27 |
Many congratulations on your articulate story. The problems
were the
same, but much more difficult 65 years ago ! Do keep writing,
pse. |
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Paul |
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23/Jun/2002:16:05:38 |
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Paul Fenton |
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23/Jun/2002:16:03:12 |
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Cornel |
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22/Jun/2002:21:31:44 |
It was a pleasure visiting your
website, well done!!! :) |
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Ryan |
n/a |
22/Jun/2002:03:23:55 |
I am a 16 year old male from the
United States. Your web site has been
extremely helpful to me in figuring out
my sexuality and understanding my
emotions. Please don't ever take it
down. I can't thank you enough for
publishing your "diaries". |
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Nick |
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21/Jun/2002:23:34:55 |
I love the site,it was very
inspriring.Hope the site stays for a
whle,I just happened run into it but it
is.....wow! |
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kurt |
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20/Jun/2002:21:17:43 |
hi this is a really good site
i also have a site for gay men but it
focuses on the aspects for looking for
the rite person and there are some pics
involved but my hme page is:
http://www.gaydragon.freehomepage.com
so tell all of your memberd about my
site thanks. |
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Phil |
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17/Jun/2002:09:49:14 |
Dear P,
Good to see you are getting out
and about. I was taken by your
latest date with the Swede. I am
not surprised that he is taken by
you having read your site for so
ong myself - I am sure I would be
if I met you as you seem such a
kind, open and genuine guy.
First impressions do count though
and he may well be smitten on a
first date with you. However, I
can also sympathise with your
concerns over someone being
possessive - particularly too soon -
it is an extremely difficult
situation to deal with. I am glad
you are being cautious - I wish I
was as cautious as you before
diving in headlong - good look
and I hope it all works out for
you.
Phil |
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Shannon |
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16/Jun/2002:04:08:00 |
i don't know what you believe but i don't believe in being
gay!
that is why he didn't make th esame sex. but i also don't
think it is
right to judge on if they are. i mean he also didn't tell
you to hate
the person. but good luck to you and hope tha tyou can turn
straight
again one day. email sometimes. shanon |
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Amen Armin |
Gay Berlin |
12/Jun/2002:15:19:59 |
A big hello to everyone!!!
This is my 3rd visit and really love your page. I am from
Berlin -
Germany. Berlin is very liberal and not homophobic, where
you can hold
hands on a date in public and same-sex marriage is legally
entitled ! !
I love to go out to gay clubs, cafes and discos - if I find
some time
to go out. I am running a Gay Bed -&- Breakfast - and
sometimes its lots
of work.
I donŽ´t want to complain - No, it s fun! To meet people from
everywhere
is really cool.
My boyfriend and I love this website. Keep up the great work!
xxx Love
Amen |
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Dr. Alan G Harvey
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07/Jun/2002:20:15:09 |
As a senior Mentor in Schools and Community Colleges, I fould
your
story profound. |
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Karl |
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04/Jun/2002:06:35:03 |
This site has helped me alot with the issuae of coming out.
Thank u
so much. |
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sharni.verbunt |
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30/May/2002:10:31:55 |
Hi i really like your story i hope you luck for your story
you r cute so
very cute.THANX for helping me to stop taking drugs -&-
getting on with my
life.
LUV SHARNI.V
P.S thanx thanx thanx thanx thanx thanx thanx
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sharnie |
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30/May/2002:10:22:01 |
this is a amazing story thaxs for helping me i wish everyone
would
understand like you. i heard about you from my teacher for
a eximent
THANXS
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Joaquin |
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29/May/2002:22:56:08 |
Hello,
Um... what to say... you are absolutely ADORABLE!!
I was totally mesmerized by your coming out story.
I think you are wonderful and adorable and if I didn't have
a
boyfriend, I would be chasing you to the ends of the earth!
besos,
Joaquin |
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Journey |
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29/May/2002:14:59:30 |
I've been reading your site for about a
year and a half now. You are just a
beautiful part of my week, because I've
travelled half way across the world,
but still you are there and have
insights on life. Good luck on your
book, and enjoy life's journey. Live
in the moment. Much love. |
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Krystian |
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28/May/2002:01:12:18 |
You're a very beautiful boy. Perhaps I'll message you when
I come over
there! Just thought i'd let you know I like your page. |
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Jeremy |
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24/May/2002:00:18:26 |
Hey I live over in the states in Ohio and am looking 4 chat
friends,
email buddies, came out of the closet last year...am 26 here
clean cut,
would like to chat with someone over seas, anyhow great web
page, drop
me an email if you like |
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Fabes |
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22/May/2002:03:56:29 |
i love your site i only wish i had hear
about it growing up then maybe things
would have been easier now keep up the
writing your to good at it seeya from
the aussie that don't have there heads
shoved up their arses |
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TOM |
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19/May/2002:23:32:07 |
I JUST HAPPENED ON YOUR STORY WHILE SEARCHING FOR SOME FAMILY
HISTORY...
VERY INTERESTING...IT COULD'VE BEEN MY STORY FROM MANY YEARS
AGO. THANK
YOU!
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Mark |
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19/May/2002:22:13:04 |
Excellent new format! Hope you gave the
new site a proper launch party ;o) |
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Dion |
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17/May/2002:23:54:28 |
Hi P!
Been reading your diary for a few years now. I started when
I was back
in Australia. Now I'm in London! Been here for about a year
now.
£Ð¤µ¤ó¤Ï¤üËܸì¤òÏ令ü¤«¤É¤«¤·¤é¤Ê¤«¤Ã¤¿¤èí£I never knew you could speak
Japanese. I also studied it at school and spent some time
there. I
absolutely love the place. I've got a friend living in Nagoya
so I'll
probably end up there when they kick me out of the UK.
Anyway, take care. Hope you're keeping well.
úaúIú‚
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jon |
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11/May/2002:15:29:07 |
hi,
this is a truly great page and has helped with so much stuff.
i'm
gay, and although my friends at school know, i've never been
able to
tell my parents for the reasons you highlighted, but so much
of what
you said, was so, so recognisable and really helps, thanks.
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meghan |
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11/May/2002:04:43:24 |
I am not a homosexual but i am so proud of what you did i
bet it was the
hardest thing you would ever have to do you have a lot of
good strength
and courage and i truely admire you for what you did
meghan |
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Brantz |
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09/May/2002:19:51:35 |
I think that you web page there ios to help you gay teens-pre's
into
excepting themselves into being gay and that it's not a bad
thing. I
also liked your page because it helped me because at first
i wasnt
really sure I thought that it was like a fase that I was going
through
but it's not and you'r storys helped me out alot and I would
like to
say keep up the good work, It helps to nkow that there are
so many
peopl willing to help. |
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Sam |
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03/May/2002:11:22:51 |
Ive been reading this for a very long time now and i just
wanted to say
thank you.
My friend recently was the victim of male rape and had no
idea what to
do about it. Without the information on this site i wouldve
been
useless to him but was able to tell him what to expect, what
to do and
support him through his ordeals with the hospital and police.
Im not in any way saying thank you for you having to go through
that
appalling experience! I wouldnt wish that on anyone but just
know that
you've helped someone once again,
All the best
Sam
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gary |
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02/May/2002:06:38:04 |
Great stuff I only wish i'd come out in school. Ijust fully
came out
about 3 yrs ago I'm 42yrs . i'll tell you it takews real guts
to be
uncloseted bless you and have a great life gary |
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Gary |
Yorkshireboy.net |
02/May/2002:00:38:52 |
Cool website
Gary x |
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Christian Eging |
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01/May/2002:04:59:52 |
Hi P.,
Was just surfing the net and saw your page.
Thank you for posting your story. |
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Geo |
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23/Apr/2002:20:31:26 |
Hello "P" !
Your story is compulsive reading, and your web site is an
excellent
reflection of you and your bubbly personality. Well Done !
Also, and perhaps more importantly, your site, and your Forum,
provide a
unique place for others to turn to for reference, or for guidance
with
affiliate type problems, so you are in effect providing a
kind of
counselling service.
I've given you the above and all the well-deserved compliments
before on
my first visit last year. I don't know what happened to all
that, so
for the record, I am re-signing now.
Please keep up the good work; you are obviously a very nice,
sensitive
guy, and I totally share your sentiments about giving a helping
hand
where we can to others, gay, or gay-curious, whatever. That's
what life
should be all about regardless of religion, colour, cast,
or creed -Yes?
Hugs, Geo.
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Damion |
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22/Apr/2002:20:03:49 |
That is so cool how you came through and came out to everyone
little by
little. Its really hard to tell everyone all at once. Im only
17
years old but I hope too one day I can come out to everyone.
Alot of
people think I am, but I don't lead them on. Ive learned to
deal with
it by just not careing what other people think some people
are really
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alex |
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22/Apr/2002:04:36:37 |
Just read your coming out. I think its was very brave of you
to come
out early in your life. I bet your reaping the rewards of
feeling
totally comfortable with yourself now. Im 22 and hopefully
IíÍl have
the guts to come out and stop feeling so double faced sometimes.
Hopefully I'll find someone that i can talk to some time soon.
That for
sharing your story.
Alex |
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reco |
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20/Apr/2002:11:18:03 |
Hi!
I have read your coming out story and i developed a gr8 deal
of
respect for you. What have you done ,was amazing. I am 24
, in pakistan
so u know how is it difficult for me to come out b/c of my
religion anf
my culture. I have come out to my dad and my best friend.
they dont
hate me but they thing that i am wrong in my judgment. My
dad think i
ts a disease. lol. I will read the rest of site later . take
care and
three cheers |
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reco |
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20/Apr/2002:11:14:20 |
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jano |
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19/Apr/2002:04:00:12 |
hi, its kind of strange how our esperience (I mean gay guys)
looks
pretty the same, same fears and fellings, thanks for sharing
this, iŽ´m
not good of words so, see You and take care
TC-&-P
Jano |
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ThatP |
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